The Captain’s Pit

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haiya… why cannot appear?

Gambar-gambar yang diambil sewaktu syok layan Macro shots - to my dear kawan The Queen - thank you kerana meminjamkan Flash bersama Gary Fong, beserta macro lens and macro converter.  Sesungguhnya kini aku dah teracun yang teramat sangat.

Sorry Joey, aku beli rope next month, bulan ni, aku kena beli my cam stuff, hehehe….

Oh yes, before i forget, I’d like to express our (speaking on behalf of my baby and I) most sincere thanks and appreciation, to Abah and family kerana telah dengan berbesar hati menjadi host kepada kami, melayan pelbagai kerenah, dan tak putus-putus menghidangkan pelbagai juadah, dan buah-buahan yang best-best belaka.  Dan aku, antara orang yang paling pelahap, especially, mengharapkan, korang sekeluarga, jangan lah serik panggil kitaorang lagi ye…  But the trip was fun, and the best was having to share the experience with good friends yang sama sekepala, dan sama perut luas macam korang.  Thank you people.

And Yan - thanks for driving pi balik, there were many memorable experiences, being in the car with you.  Thank you for putting up with my son’s karenah…  Makcih, mekacih…  U the man lah bro!

Jom layan gambar… akan ditambah sedikit demi sedikit mengikut keadaan waktu, dan tahap penggunaan GIMP.  Ni baru dok test.  Queen

- finally! 

Lain kali tambah lagi ye…. Kerja banyak.  Boleh Wan? 

Sepetang Di Dusun Abah

Some findings:

1.  Anakku amat lah hyper sekali

2.  Kintamani membuat darah ku naik macam gunung berapi nak meletup, kena harrass dgn locals yang nak menjual beserta keadaan cuaca yang tak best, frust, gambar tak boleh ambik.

3.  Unsual big waves in Kuta, the beach was dissapointing, missed the sunset.

4.  Nak shopping lain kali kat Legian

5.  Rama Beach Resort and Spa rocks - villa with private pool - i shall come again.  6 star sevice!  Siap ada butler lagi. 

6.  No need for a tour guide - kena pow lagi ada lah.
7.  Satey kambing and gule kambing best gila!

8.  UluWatu and Waris - next stop. 

9.  Jimbaran seafood by the beach memang best, Alpukat juice dengan chocolate - ahhh… nyaman, enak sekali dehhh… Oh, alpukat coffee - heaven! 

10. Lega dapat balik office - well, this is me, i am my ship. 

Nak cerita panjang, tak dapat, kerja banyak.  Maybe, kalau ada masa lagi, i shall tell and upload some photos.  Point is, mengikut katanya bapak usop - bulan lapan kita ke sana lagi. 

Permisi…. 

Literally.

It’s awesome. 

Can’t wait til Saturday.  Plan on going for our first outdoor climbing in Batu Caves.  Yeah, my climbing buddy Joey and I, are two super enthusiastic climbers (Me the beginner, Joey boleh lah di-categorize kan Advance).  Ahhh… SUKER!!!!

After this week’s shite… Tak sabar sungguh nak pi climbing.  Infact, I think i can perhaps make some time for bouldering.  Read somewhere that it is infact a good practice, to boulder, in preparation for a better climb.

Ahhh.. outdoor bliss. 

Batu Caves… here we shall come.  And my poor baby, bulan ni, ibu tak boleh beli toys kat anak ibu ye, pasal ibu kena beli toys ibu, harness and belay device.  Sorry, bulan depan ye sayang…. 

I do, at a level I’ve never imagined i could.

And i miss you the most.

The captain - allowed to be sentimentle. 

I’m living the life I’ve always wanted.  Kalau ikut my milestones, I’ve exceeded the timeline for this phase of life, but, heck, living life as it is now, is better than none at all.  Infact, I think it’s timely now.  When I know a bit more of what’s bad and what’s good, when I’m more concious in making decisions, when i realize that there are not too many options, really…  Well, i’ve come to terms now, that, throughout my never ending learning curve of living, making mistakes, realizing faults, making ammends, falling down, picking up the pieces, start walking again, those sort of stuff - this is the best time to go through my life, this life i’m living.  Of course, this will not be forever, oh no… I wouldn’t want it to be forever.  This is a phase, and for this phase, i shall not have regrets, it shall be a phase to remember.  When I enter the next, this phase shall make me wiser, stronger, happier and more content.

Wadduh….  Enough lah with the attempt to be philosophical. Macam hampas gas je….

My weekend that was - maximized.

I have this problem, it’s probably adrenaline rush.  I simply can’t stop, not even to slow down.  I could not, probably, I just don’t want to.   

Last Saturday, I hit the gym with my trainer.  I thought i was getting bulkier, I joined the gym to lose some pounds - and there’s much to do about that.  It’s my fault really, can’t seem to find the time to hit more threadmills during the week.  Well, that’s an excuse of course, because when there’s time, I usually opt to stay back at the office, attempt to finish work - that will never, and alhamdullillah, selama ni belum lagi terasa habis, and that’s a good sign, or I’ll just head back home and spend some time with my boy - that when guilt kicks in, of late, it’s been kicking in rather regularly.  So, yeah, a lot to do with my physique - bukan senang nak jadi hot mama ni.  Hahahaha….

See, looking good is personal.  I want to look good for my self confidence.  I want to be lean and slim, so that I’ll be graceful when i walk, easier to carry myself up the rocks when i climb - also kesian lah kat my belay partner yang kena watch the fat ass from the bottom kan?  I want to be fit because running after a 2 1/2 year old boy isn’t like strolling in the park, and that statement, since that boy came along, is such an overstatement.  Especially when you’re the mother he runs to for manja-manja, nak susu, nak makan, nak cuci yak and stuff, and also the one who jumps (like little joey), the villant, and sometimes also the other ninja turtle, most of the time Prof Klon, his golf caddie, his football partner, his swimming coach, his F1 rival.. the list goes on and on…

Hahahaha… itu semua tipu semata-mata.  I wanna look HOT!  Enough said.

So again, weekend - gym, the off for rock climbing with my climbing partner Joey.  Joey - if I’ve not told you this, thank you, for still being single, and still enthusiastic about these extreme sports stuff, thank you, for the willingness to climb and belay with me.  We shall conquer Batu Caves next month.  We’ll the the harness and carabiner and belay device next month ya.  Yeah, we’re on a mission - since we’ve spent for the shoes - mahal tu… semangat gila budak berdua tu, after 1st climb terus register for a competition, beli kasut pelbagai…  Actually, registering for the competition gets us 20% discount for the equipment, so yours truly got herself the climbing shoes and a climbing pants.  And since such investment has been made, and we’ve made a pact not to just let this be one of those "hot bubbles" je, we’ve given ourselves milestones and objectives.  So, next month, it’s Batu Caves, later this year, probably Tioman Horn, then next year, we’re off to Kalimanjaroo or Tibet, or anywhere lah, that can provide us that kind of challenge.  So, by the time we go to Tioman, hopefully we’ll both be able to do lead climbing.  The kind that gives you the most challenge, the outdoor adventure, the most fulfilling adrenaline rush.  Yeah baby!

So, we were at the Summit Climbing Gym.  And this time, I’ve conquered the 5C+s, without any difficulty.  The 6As without recline is doable, only when they don’t have to many holds, I have to work on the swing and the jump - that being said, kenalah pergi gym untuk meringankan the lower body weight tu.  Yang kena recline tu susah sikit, pasal my upper body strenght belum cukup mantap, and I can’t seem to compensate with the lower body especially the legs pushes , belum well balance.  But, hey, i’ll get to that one next week.  Relying on my mental maths and 3 times of climbing, by mid next month, i should be able to conquer 6C+ or 7A.  Then, Batu Caves, here i come.

It was 330 when we left gym, and I had to rush home, take a shower then bawak the family to go watch wild hogs at 5 in OU.  Aduh… OU on a Saturday evening, I was dreading over nak cari parking, and my mum was insisting on semayang Asar kat rumah.  I said, Asar lah kat sana, kan senang, at least tak lah pressure si pemandu nak park.  430, adik ku sudah call, nak beli jajan, and we’re still home.  But sheer luck, masuk je OU, terus dapat parking.  5pm sharp, we were on the 4th floor GSC cinema punya lobby.  So, on time.  Rush dari pagi sampai petang.  My poor "anak ibu good boy" had to settle for his popcorn tgk wild hogs, since spiderman dah penuh.  Nanti ibu bawak tgk spiderman over this coming weekend ye?

Habis wayang, dia nak pergi main "slide ball", so after successfully making a little scene, it could have been well under control if only i had insisted, but i was too tired to even bother, plus, rasa guilty of making empty promises bila dia mintak nak pi "slide ball" finally dah tinggi, I took him anyways.  My parents dah sibuk nak balik for magrib, i said, semayang lah kat sini, but my mum insisted nak balik.  So I said ok, tumpang lah Ayu.  We’ll see you at home.  Sampai kesudah, depa tak balik, semayang juga kat OU, i think my sister purposely did not pick up her phone.  Itu budak kecik lepas main sudah mintak nasik.  Itu mother and Kakak sibuk nak balik tgk AF, it was 8 plus.  So, pi lah rush makan kat Bangkok apa ntah… but food was good, or i was really lapar.  Then rush home, missed Dafi, kakak was making such a fussed pasal tak tgk Dafi.  I couldn’t care less pasal AF ni.  Too much exploitation, too much senseless drama, too much of mediocre entertainment.  So, I main lah F1, and ninja turtle with my boy, then we read Wiggles punya buku cerita, thanks to his dad yang beli pelbagai Wiggle stuff waktu dia pi bercuti kat Aussie tu.  I’m glad that he thinks of anak dia selalu. It works well this way, so, alhamdullillah, hopefully, will last like this lah.

That night, another late night, pasal i got myself Dina Zaman’s "I am Muslim" book, yang sangatlah provocative one…  Tapi belum habis baca, because i had to force myself to sleep in preparation for the next day golf’s tourney.

So, the next day, Sunday, golf at 1, kat Danau.  Aduh, one very long challenging course.  And the greens are killer.  So, before golf, the boy wants to go swimming, after waking up lambat.  Maid tak ada, cuti, so me being the person yang tak boleh tahan tengok rumah bersepah, berhabuk semua, woke up at 7, siap semua kerja rumah, tgh prepare breakfast, dengar "Ibu… hug…".  Bangun, makan, then nak pi swimming.  So, at 1030, bawak si kenit pergi swimming with kakak.  I had to time myself with discipline over the weekend, best jugak, my time was filled, maximized, weekend filled me up.  1130, naik, mandi, got ready for golf.  Baby boy tak prepare nak let ibu go, it’s Sunday, and he knows it, so he started to make "Kim Kakam" satu alasan for me to take him along.  Dengan rasa sedih, dan bercinta gila nak main tgh-tgh hari buta, kat danau pulak tu, i left, dengan bapak ku.  Hahahaha… the guys yang main pun kena control kononnya nak buat impression kat "bakal bapak mertua" depa… hahahaha… Men… But they’re good guys, with sometimes, very peculiar sense of humour.

Golf was as expected, challenging.  Played well, was hitting the balls awesomely, cuma my short game was frustration.  Imagine regulations, but ending up with a double bogey.  Now, after a while, that sort of make you feel like membaling je putter macam lontar lembing.  Then again, bukan salah putter, nasib baik the hands are so well intact to the body.   So, apa lagi, bayar keliling lah.  Fligh mates are fun, the guys and i had a side bet, in the end, i think square je.  But, the competition was friendly, and tough, with many psycho moments.  Biasalah.  There was the other lady who played with us.  Org besar, so, enough to say, I will be playing more with her.  Whatever lah dia nak score, I tulis je.

My dad won 8th.  I scored 32 points on a 23 handicap.  Adjustable system 36.  Sampai sekarang i don’t know how that’s done, and i don’t quite care, before the money exchanging hands on every tee-box matters more.  Pasal ada 2 je ladies main, so we all dapatlah consolation prizes, which i really don’t condone, but the other lady memang nak something.  I ended up with an LG DVD Player, heh, why not?  I usually deny any offer of consolation prize, if i were the only lady playing.  The guys know this already.  I only insist on teeing off at red, without stroke, or white, with some strokes.  Hehehehe.  Then, the normal incentive lah, kalau tak, tak game jugak.

So, kesian my baby… when we got home, it was close to 10pm.  And we was still awake, he ran straight into my arms, mintak hug when he saw me at the door.  I hope he’ll one day understand that ibu has to do what she does.  

The captain takes the ship to sea not to return with the ship empty. 

Mak aiii… panjang nya…. time to get back to real business. 

I had one, never took off.

This is my second attempt.  Why now?

Because the captain thinks that life, now, is worth sharing.

But, whether or not the captain has the luxury of time to tell, we shall have to wait.  Afterall, the captain has a ship to steer, and the journey is long, the sea is never composed.

Do, boatmen, do!